Thursday, April 8, 2010

Live up My Life

Sitting in class
Bored out of my mind
One thing I'm thinking
aboutYou're all that's on my mind
Maybe this will pass
In some amount of time
I know we're not together
But you're still on my mind
I have no control
On all these thoughts
Constantly still thinking
About all the times we shared
All the laughs we had
But all the tears too
More laughs than tears
But remembering them both
Remembering all the times
That we spent together
The love that we shared
The love that we made
Remembering every litte thing
That we had in that year
We had so muchCan't forget it all
Start to tear upRemembering it all
Ask the teacher If I an leave the room
Walk down the hallInto the bathroom
Can't help this at all
I just break into tears
I just kept telling myself Over and Over again"Just get over it now"
"Pull yourself together"
Wipe the tears away
Pull it together
Go back to class Act perfectly normal
Can't let anyone know
The hurt I'm still feeling
Still thinking about it
But holding it back
Don't cry now
Not in this placeGotta be tough
Hold back the tears
Gotta get over you
So I don't continue this
The bell rings
We switch up out classes Just another boring classAgain just to think
The feeling starts overBut I gotta hold backCan't cry now
No not yet
When I get homeA breakdown could happen
But as of right nowI don't want anyone to see
The heart that;s still broken
The pain I'm still feelingOut comes the mask
That everyone seesA fake smileMy try to laugh
But inside I'm still hurting
But I don't want them to seeI've got to get over this
No more pretending
Tired of tears
And faking a smileI want it to be realI want to be happy
No more tears will I cry
No more nights of no sleep
I will still think of you
Forget nothing
But they will be happy thoughts
No more crying
Can't let this ruin lifeI've got to just liveI've got to live happy
Not so depressed
Go home nowAnd don't cry
Getting over this nowBeing tough as can beThis is my lifeAnd now is the timeAnd fix all of this
And live up my life

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